Jenny sat holding her stomach in
pain on the edge of the bed. With her head still spinning from
the drugs she took and tears streaming down her eyes, she tries
to piece together a few thoughts. Just a few thoughts. Where was
she? Who was she? Why was she back in this same story-line again?
Why cant she break free?
She looks back over her shoulder at a man lying there asleep. A man who doesnt love or even care about her. He was just like the last one, and the one before. The next one would most likely be the same...or would he?
Jenny forced herself to her feet. I cant change! the music blared, Lord knows, I cant change! She staggers to the balcony, trembling. With all her strength, she pulls herself onto the ledge. Music pounding, wind blowing, she wishes for the courage to just let go. Why cant she just let go? Why cant she just let the worthless, empty chaos end?
Suddenly she knows why, if even just for an instant. Her mind flashes to the one who once loved her. All he wanted was for her to love him back. He would never hurt her. He would never run out when she needed him. He would never use her and just throw her out like to morning garbage. If only she could go back to him.
She looks down forever into the busy street, realizing the place she had come to. Still shaking, she manages to control herself just enough to step down to the balcony and drops into a chair, sobbing.
The one who once loved her still does. He sits thinking about her day and night. He sends letters, only to have them returned, unopened. He does all he can to reach out, but knows that it is ultimately her decision. So he waits.
When the Lord began to speak through Hosea, the Lord said to him, Go, take yourself an adulterous wife and children of unfaithfulness, because the land is guilty of the vilest adultery in departing from the Lord. (Hosea 1:2)
So Hosea married an adulterous woman. They had three children together. He loved her. He loved her, even though she hurt him. He loved her, though she loved others (and there were others). He stuck with her until she left him. Even then, his love did not falter. Though his heart ached with unspeakable pain, he went on loving her.
This is not just a story of one couples marital woes. It is a vivid illustration of Gods never-ending love for us. We are His bride, yet we sell ourselves to whoever else would bid. We go on day after day searching for something better, something to fill the empty spot inside. Not finding it in one affair, we search for in the next, and the next after that. Before long, we find ourselves sold as a prostitute for that immortal pimp called Lucifer, and we couldnt come back on our own if we tried.
I will plant her for myself in the land. I will show love to the one I called Not my loved one. I will say to those called Not my people, You are my people; and they will say, You are my God. (Hosea 2:23)
The Lord said to me, Go, show love to your wife again, though she is loved by another and is an adulteress. Love her as the Lord loves the Israelites, though they turn to other gods and love the sacred raisin cakes.
So I bought her for fifteen shekels of silver and about a homer and a lethek of barley. Then I told her, You are to live with me many days; you must not be a prostitute or be intimate with any man, and I will live with you. (Hosea 3:1-3)
Did you catch that wonderful prophesy? Hosea paid the price for his wife to be reconciled to him. He bought her out of her prostitution. God has done the same for us. Only, the cost of our reconciliation was the life of His Son.
Do you feel like Hoseas wife? Or maybe you feel like Jenny in Forest Gump. If youve found yourself a slave to an endless search for fulfillment, take heart in the fact that your one true love is waiting for you to come back home. Come back to Him and find the love youve been looking for.
There was a knock at the door. As she opened it up, Jenny found her true love there again. This time, though, she was ready. Im sick, she admitted, and cant find the cure.
Come stay with me, he replied, Ill take care of you.
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